mundos ideales

1

c: I haven't talked to you in a long time
r: I know. Regret doing it now?

2

r: How can you deny that?
c: Like this: NO!
r: How come no?
c: Just no
r: Defend that no.
c: No. Just no. No to everything you could think of tonight as any possible explanation to anything that has ever existed, exists or will exist in the world. or outside of it.
r: ...

3

c: I dont feel like being funny
r: No that's cool -
r: Here how about this: my mom has cancer
  well, pre cancer, so not really cancer
  but they get to take parts of her out
  so it's like all the benefits of cancer
c: I wish I had cancer
r: You're interesting enough

4

r: Before I go I'm going to lunch tomorrow, want to come with me?
c: No, I dont have unreal lunches
r: I thought you could meet me at 12:30 winter yourtime and I would be there waiting at 1:30 summer mytime but ok I'll just eat by myself and send you a transcript of the conversation I would have had if you were there

I thought Watterson, for having such a great mind. But then hobbes is so cute. So definitely the answer is Calvin.


Because Hobbes' lovely questionings and demmands are product of Calvin's imagination so by choosing calvin I'm actually choosing both.

No, that's not true. I was not pursuing the maximization of benefits.

Calvin is an individual thinker, he loves hobbes but he feels free to disagree with him and seriously respects him as important feedback. After all he is the only one who gets him.

Plus he makes the most silly faces, and I love silly faces.

memories can be triggered by the most unexpected circumstances.

how cute

http://www.buzznet.com/groups/buzznetoriginals/forum/topics/11434/

Why do tattoos need a double tee? and a double u. double o I mean. Like they are secret agents. Well, they can be undercover. I don't wan't my tattoo to be seen when I wear a dress so I'm getting a tatoo in my belly button, inside of it. I'm geting the sistine chappelle, since it has the same shape.

on my mop side
What would cause you a great deal of isolated pain? said I to my stomach. What if a put a cigarette off in your belly button? That has to hurt. (It does, says Micheangelo) I would never do that in real life. That is why imagination and language are so great. Whatever comtempophrenic tendency is relieved there.

on tattoos
I don't have any, I've always said that if I had to choose one I would pick a white rectangle. But the thought of waking up with the same pattern on my skin day after day causes me anxiety. I already "own" a body that doesn't modify itself regularly and that

x: how are you? still sick?
c: i had fever during my talking at the seminar
x: have you visited a doctor? like professionally?
c: the pizza box is professional!
x: you're sick and insane.
c: i'm insack.

c: i wonder if we would get along this good in real life
x: what is real life like?

c: i'm dying
x: don't die.
c: i will. i'm mortal.

and suffering. I hate colds, runny noses and dizzy heads.

On love and solitude

I like being responsible about me and other people. and I know it takes me a loooong time to recuperate after meaningful break ups. so I take my time. At the beginning it had to do with the fear of getting hurt. But well, I've also realized I have this emptyness issue that comes and goes and that acts by formatting all my feelings towards things. I think that's a sign of inmaturity and I dont want to expose anybody to a relationship that all of the sudden can lose estability. It's not fair for him, nor for me. Untill I dont learn how to not escape from difficult situations, to not to be such a fatalist, I think the best I can do is remain alone forever. --that's a joke, "a fatalist", get it? get it?

(Did you know the number 42 is all the numbers on the faces of a pair of dice added together?
The secret to the universe is either chance, or "paradise")

Once upon time I studied Media Communication and specialized in:

-Journalism -but I didnt like it as much
-Design -but didnt find it as fullfilling
-Communication for Development- and thought I had found sommmething.

So after working in a project where I had to travel and interview people from different places and backgrounds, I decided that, that was what I wanted to do. But I didnt feel prepared so I went back to school to get the theorethical tools I needed. And after three years of studying sociology I dont regret it, although I do sigh about design every now and then.

Even now, that I am working as a freelance designer.

In december, I'll finish sociology and I'll dedicate entirely to work on my thesis -that is about interactions between men and women on the street. I think I would love to work either in the jungle or the highlands.

Nevertheless I need to finish my thesis first.


After that I would be ready to do what turns me on the most: create & help.

 

 

 

 

 

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Im entering to finals. The final finals and then school will be over and so will be my studies. The other day an anglospeaker asked me about my thesis so I finally sat down and wrote sth in english. There is so much missing still though.

Since I manifested what was the theme of my thesis I received so many questions that were trying to ubicate any faultyness (i have no idea if this word exist), any possible error in my theoretical frame and perspective.

Only men do it?
The identification of a pattern has led me to the exploration of how this pattern express in other social relationships. What I found from that is that it happens from men to women, men to men, woman to men, and woman to woman. In all of those there is the idea of adressing to a stranger mostly with a humor based purpose and either say something offensive or that is supposed to be complimentary. And well I chose the  case of women because of its very public exposure, not leaving aside the other cases because they are still saying something about the way people -strangers- relate in public spaces.
Im not focusing myself in this in order to judge it from a moralist point of view (I have typed something really similar on my thesis) on how this behaviour affect women and their right to use freely the public space. Instead my biggest interest is to identify why does it happen in the first place. So first I had to describe the social practices that conform this phenomenon, tipify them and all that. It has been really interesting so far. I have lots of things written in spanish, unluckily only this little excerpt in english.

Its funny cause at the beginning, my thesis' goal was to comprehend why these social practices occur, but eventually when I found out that there werent any sociologist studies about this, and how lots of people were a bit sceptical whether it was a propper sociological study, I had to add as a goal of my thesis to prove its status of sociological problem.

By the way when I say there was no sociologies studies, I meant here in Peru, because it had been studied in the US and in France, by Carol Brooks Gardner, and Elisabeth Badinter (well, she is philosopher) respectively. Probably there are more but those are the only ones I found. The first one has been studying this topic since 1995 (could be earlier) and while I dont agree with her thoughts (havent read her whole book mainly because i dont have it, but i know she locates the problem in an scenario of male domination which yes, exists but its not enough to explain why this happens in the first place. I also felt when reading her that it lacked the perspective of a sociohistoric process and the way history is used is mainly to confirmed that it has happened before. but i could be extremely wrong. hm, i need to read that book). The case of Badinter is much more interesting since she criticizes the studies about this topic from a structural point of view but then again, she doesnt believe that certain behaviours like looks, stares should be treated next to the others. And well it makes sense if you are basing (like she does) your critics in studies that label these practices (and talk about behaviours, and not practices) as harassment. I've chosen to use the term of Uncivil Attention (not knowing exactly who uses it and only knowing that its referred to Goffman's Civil Unattention. And well, I have developped my own concepts because I didnt find any that was good enough for how I was thinking this problem.

I need to traslate my thesis soon.

Those of this weekend. I went out, ate, danced, chatted with amazing people, talked about science remembering when I wanted to be a scientist. It was really amazing.

I'm happy.

A smile is enough some days

Anybody's death. Today I was on the computer and I heard on the tv that they were saying that a young actress and anthropologist had killed herself. Antuane introduced her to me one time, but I barely knew this girl.  Despite that, she will always say hi to me in a really polite way, like she knew me from a long time. I really like when people is like that, so I would always try to remove my usual seriousness to smile wider..

I can't believe she killed herself.

You sometimes feel like dying yes, but you don't kill yourself. That doesn't make sense at all. Why would you kill yourself. Provoked anticipated death doesn't make sense.

I can't believe it.

On Friday, I presented my thesis theme on this students seminar. I was really nervous before I started talking but then I got used to the flapping of the butterflies inside of my belly. For a moment I wished it wasn't so formal and that would be all talking in a circle. Later we went to Emilio's house to drink and talk with two of my favorite professors.

I was asked  to give 5 songs of which I know all the lyrics. And so I started to sing David Bowie's When I live my dream.

I never got to tell you that I won an investigation contest in my school. I didnt' know how important it was till my professors started to congratulate me. It was weird-nice. I guess they were excited that five sociology students won the contest compared to the cero students that won last year (from a total of 25 winners in the whole school).

The investigation I presented is my thesis project and it's about this social practice that includes leering and grabbing strangers on the street.

So far I'm going great with it. After changing the topic of my thesis five times, I have finally found the one.